today didn't started off well.
i guess it's partly my part.
maybe sometimes i should just shutup and do whatever i can help/do.
i feel if people wanna help, they will be initiative to do some portions to lighten the work load.
if they don't then too bad, just suck thumb and do everything, rather than keep pushing people to do.
i hate keeping track on people's work and all.
i swear it's fucking annoying and tiring.
everybody has their own activity/programs during the holidays, who don't?
responsibility and discipline, everybody has that.
it only differs whether you wanna fully utilised it.
to me, grade matters ALOT.
i had been sacrificing and striving so hard to maintain/improve my gpa.
if it's because of all these and it deprove, might as well i don't need to put in so much effort iniatially.
time with friends, dance, work all been sacrificed in this 1.5year.
i know there's no turning back now.