i hasn't been updating and all.
partly was due to my laziness.
back to here today is because i need a portal to vent my feelings.
twitter/facebook is neither a good way to say anything.
finally dance started from weeks of break.
11am to 6pm.
but i was not looking forward this morning, which i've no idea why.
i really don't know what i want now.
i don't feel happy dancing anymore.
whywhywhy?
i used to like it to the point that i could go against anything that resist my decision.
yet i don't feel a single thing at this moment.
maybe my body and mind is tired of dancing.
the word 'give up' keeps appearing in my head.
however, my mind is hesitating with this choice.
sigh.
i don't regret dancing for so long.
been through so much fabulous experiences, making new friends, learning new techniques, exploring new styles and all.
from the very raw side till today.
improve, so what?
there isn't any strive to move me forward in this route.
totally not being myself during training today.
my body and mind just don't want to cooperate with me.
maybe i will feel happier/better if all these ends here.
:')