It was once so perfect.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
i don't like to see one by one down with tears.
the heartache that i felt within myself, was totally unbearable.
i constantly told myself i need to be strong although i'm on the brim of my tears as well.
i know i'm a disappointment.
i hasn't been performing up to standard, which i don't know what's wrong with me.
training, vetting, everything, i'm not having the "fun and joy" feeling i had in the past.
why?
past trainings were much much more intense and tough compared to combased.
vetting were much much more stricter.
nowadays, getting easily demoralised when i can't execute the choreography well.
am i getting tired of dance?
i need some soul-searching.
the heartache that i felt within myself, was totally unbearable.
i constantly told myself i need to be strong although i'm on the brim of my tears as well.
i know i'm a disappointment.
i hasn't been performing up to standard, which i don't know what's wrong with me.
training, vetting, everything, i'm not having the "fun and joy" feeling i had in the past.
why?
past trainings were much much more intense and tough compared to combased.
vetting were much much more stricter.
nowadays, getting easily demoralised when i can't execute the choreography well.
am i getting tired of dance?
i need some soul-searching.
