It was once so perfect.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
happening day, really tired my eyes.
headed to school with a pair of puffy eyes due to last night.
don't jump into conclusion, nothing happens between me and baby (:
he has always been an awesome boyf for these days.
i appreciated everything he did for me.
even simple things like, sending me home almost everyday after my dance training although he might be very restless the entire day at work.
i'm glad i've met him and of course got together with him.
thank you dearest and you know i love you.
the actual reason why i cried, it's because i really love my locking choreographers, however, i simply just couldn't meet their expectations even if i had given my best.
it's not obvious but i tried though i was drained out of energy.
how i wish i'm a battery, then i could recharge myself when i'm in low batt, so that i've the stamina to perform full-out again.
some words they said, did linger within my thoughts.
some encourages me, and also hurts me.
now i understand why Ms Gina always said grownups have a confused mind.
saying about vetting today.
initially, both of my items got scraped off because it doesn't flow well in the storyline.
i was holding back my tears in the studio and keep reminding that i'm strong, i would not cry.
after i found out that my modern5 dance mates in tears, i ran to the ladie's to look for them.
i don't know why, but when i see them crying, my tears just welled out in my eyes.
i know i shouldn't cry, i know i need to stay happy (at least infront of them) to cheer them up.
but i really could not control my emotion, it was just so overwhelming.
i could feel the bond within the team.
from this combased i've learnt something.
even if we can't perform, at least i gained so much more friends which make my life very interesting.
the days we came so early from jurong, hougang, sengkang, everywhere just to come to school for training.
the additional trainings that we had on our own, the scolding/correcting of timing or techniques.
the rants during these days, not to miss out the joy as well.
everything we had gone through together really is unforgetable.
i believe everyone had moved a level up and becoming a better dancer.
now, every item got to perform.
i feel that we should even cherish our item or anything we're doing because things are so unpredictable.
as long as we did our best, as for sure, we did not let ourself down.
while wanting things to go our ways, shall leave to fate.
headed to school with a pair of puffy eyes due to last night.
don't jump into conclusion, nothing happens between me and baby (:
he has always been an awesome boyf for these days.
i appreciated everything he did for me.
even simple things like, sending me home almost everyday after my dance training although he might be very restless the entire day at work.
i'm glad i've met him and of course got together with him.
thank you dearest and you know i love you.
the actual reason why i cried, it's because i really love my locking choreographers, however, i simply just couldn't meet their expectations even if i had given my best.
it's not obvious but i tried though i was drained out of energy.
how i wish i'm a battery, then i could recharge myself when i'm in low batt, so that i've the stamina to perform full-out again.
some words they said, did linger within my thoughts.
some encourages me, and also hurts me.
now i understand why Ms Gina always said grownups have a confused mind.
saying about vetting today.
initially, both of my items got scraped off because it doesn't flow well in the storyline.
i was holding back my tears in the studio and keep reminding that i'm strong, i would not cry.
after i found out that my modern5 dance mates in tears, i ran to the ladie's to look for them.
i don't know why, but when i see them crying, my tears just welled out in my eyes.
i know i shouldn't cry, i know i need to stay happy (at least infront of them) to cheer them up.
but i really could not control my emotion, it was just so overwhelming.
i could feel the bond within the team.
from this combased i've learnt something.
even if we can't perform, at least i gained so much more friends which make my life very interesting.
the days we came so early from jurong, hougang, sengkang, everywhere just to come to school for training.
the additional trainings that we had on our own, the scolding/correcting of timing or techniques.
the rants during these days, not to miss out the joy as well.
everything we had gone through together really is unforgetable.
i believe everyone had moved a level up and becoming a better dancer.
now, every item got to perform.
i feel that we should even cherish our item or anything we're doing because things are so unpredictable.
as long as we did our best, as for sure, we did not let ourself down.
while wanting things to go our ways, shall leave to fate.
