It was once so perfect.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
i'm feel so demoralise at the moment.
being approve to attend lessons at school of dance doesnt attract me anymore.
out of the sudden, i "lost" the interest in ballet.
i dont even know why am i feeling this way.
i've been pondering for the past hours whether should i just give up now.
11 years of efforts and achievements, should i just put a fullstop to it?
where's the motivation of always wanting to get a distinction in every ballet exams?
where's the girl who has the passion towards ballet and sacrifice most of her time trying to get the best out of it?
why am i losing all these?
i suddenly miss gerlyn alot, my awesome dance partner.
where's she?
i hasnt seen her for veryvery long.
she's used to be there to hear my problems and encourage & motivate me to keep on dancing.
one by one, everyone is leaving.
frankly, i dont bear to see my class to be dispersed.
i know we doesnt have a choice, so what's up next?
it's indeed not easy coming thus far which make me hestitating to quit.
but i feel like i'm holding onto something that i myself is uncertain about the future, no matter how good or how much effort i'm trying to put into performing.
how far can i go?
or is this not my genre at all?
being approve to attend lessons at school of dance doesnt attract me anymore.
out of the sudden, i "lost" the interest in ballet.
i dont even know why am i feeling this way.
i've been pondering for the past hours whether should i just give up now.
11 years of efforts and achievements, should i just put a fullstop to it?
where's the motivation of always wanting to get a distinction in every ballet exams?
where's the girl who has the passion towards ballet and sacrifice most of her time trying to get the best out of it?
why am i losing all these?
i suddenly miss gerlyn alot, my awesome dance partner.
where's she?
i hasnt seen her for veryvery long.
she's used to be there to hear my problems and encourage & motivate me to keep on dancing.
one by one, everyone is leaving.
frankly, i dont bear to see my class to be dispersed.
i know we doesnt have a choice, so what's up next?
it's indeed not easy coming thus far which make me hestitating to quit.
but i feel like i'm holding onto something that i myself is uncertain about the future, no matter how good or how much effort i'm trying to put into performing.
how far can i go?
or is this not my genre at all?
i'm confuse.
i'm feeling useless.
